In February 2020 I went through a mental breakdown and self-referred myself to a psychological wellbeing practitioner. To be honest I was suicidal. Then the lockdown happened in March 2020, I had never felt more introverted in my life.
Context I was in the 2nd last trimester of my Audio Production degree, an opportunity came to me to work with a psychological well-being practitioner to produce meditation music alongside her vocal meditations. I took the opportunity and music became my outlet. Producing this meditation music was the most therapeutic experience of my life. I decided to focus my final dissertation on Meditation Music. During this time I went through 12 weeks of Therapy. It was extremely tough, my mental health was very challenging and to top it off I lost my job. The thoughts kept coming back. I struggle to articulate and focusing my attention until a dear friend gave me the pep talk empowering me as an ethnic woman. I nearly gave up on my degree because I wanted to be perfect. I then said to myself finish my degree regardless of the outcome. Then at least you have achieved a goal you set for yourself. I finished my degree with BA(Hons) Audio Production 2:2
After this period my dream was to create an electronic sound bath specifically designed to help heal others, whatever they may go through, my purpose was to be there for others through my meditation music. My inspiration is Helen Bonny a legendary Music Therapist that uses classical music through guided imagery, Robert Monroe founder of Hemi Sync & J.S Epperson a producer at Hemi Sync. Hemi-Sync specializes in the scientific research of binaural beats. Indian Philosophy with Bija Mantras, Tibetan Bowls and frequency healing. I am so grateful for my inspirations and I thank them dearly.
I now have a project that I can reflect back to a year later September 2021, since I submitted my dissertation and my dream came true. I performed all my produced tracks to 6 individuals live with crystal healing. Here is a video vlog of it below. My meditation music production is Amandla Music and Amandla means Strength. I embody strength now through the influence of meditation music. Keep going even when you want to give up.
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